Day 4
Yesterday, I spent the whole day fighting storms of life. I wrote nothing and I almost descended back into the depths of depression. This is characteristic of a poverty stricken life yet from a distance I am beggar sitting on a beach of gold. my point in writing is not to make a quick buck , but to build a consulting company around a business idea. This morning I was reading a post from www.goalblog.com in which Jill Koenig talks about the mother lode goal.
According to Koenig
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Your “Mother Lode” Goal is the one Goal that when achieved, will allow for the attainment of most or possibly all of your other Goals more quickly and easily" www.goalblog.com
it definitely was an interesting post and I began to think about what my Mother Lode goal is. I believe my mother lode goal is the business book I am working on and if I manage to finish writing the book in the remaining 90 days of the years, other goals will become easier to achieve.
I believe that I don't have to focus on fighting the storms of life , but I need to focus on steering the ship of my progress in my intended direction. If I don't write the book , my mind will keep on haunting me and blaming me for not making my contribution to human development and for not making sufficient attempts to make a difference in my life.
One thing that I need to work on seriously is to clear all social debt as I am living my life under blame from several people related to me and this continues to sap the energy of my existence. My father passed away about 10 years ago (October 1997) and the same level of blame that I live in is the same pain that darkened his life over the years. As long as this pain remains , it remains an a stumbling block to my efforts to live a normal life. In the bible , the prophet Jeremiah complained " I have neither lend nor borrowed , yet I am a man everyone contends with".
I put this as one of my main goals for the 15 month period. My father had social debt with his inlaws and at the same time their marriage with my mother was a very sad one. By the time he passed away he had been living with another wife for about 5 years. My father and his brothers were not in good books and they lived in total conflict, a scenario that was 'normal' for their generation. relationships between brothers and sisters are improving with its generation. I realise that most of my social debt can be cleared with sufficient money. the social processes are not hard but they need funding.
I have also adjusted the way I live these days for I was contininually falling back into depression. I am now more understanding of people 's attitudes and my purpose for living. depression is a time waster and it is a source of many illnesses as well as emotional turmoil.
I also figure out that in my pathway to my goals I need to quickly finish the first draft of my business book by November 30 and have first fine Draft by December 31,2007. I will then start a research period for another 90 days. the next 90 days will be peer review, seminars to elicit feedback and test concepts as well as looking for indorsements when the editing is done. by the end June my book should be ready for editing by a professional editor as well as getting endorsements. so roughly the project plan is like.
October-November-December 2007First Fine Draft
January-February-March 2008Research Draft, Seminars, Peer-Review, order more books
April-May-June 2008Editing and Media Preparations
July-August- September 2008Endorsements
Self-Publishing Process (printing, uploading to amazon and barnes & Noble.)
October-November-December 2008Book promotion Tours and Seminars
I need to start serious consultancy work so that I manage to leave employment and concentrate on business so a serious fund raising initiative is critical for me to achieve the goal of retiring from employment as well as the goal of clearing social debts. I have travelled a long road and I see my success becoming clearer and clearer than ever before.